I have to write this down before I forget – today – Tuesday, July 09, 2013 – regarding my quiet time with God this morning:
Feeling somewhat defeated after being so hopeful coming out of Awaken, instead of reading the Bible I sat quietly with God. He began showing me, after I finally stopped whining, to lay the axe to the root. The root was my belief that I am irreparable. Meaning that though I believe God is able to fix others, I am beyond repair. He further explained how I see my life as stuck in old habits as though they were engraved in my very being. He asked me to begin to see these habits not as being engraved but as being transitory; defined in the Encarta Dictionary as not permanent or lasting, but existing only for a short time.
He also encouraged me to continue reading the two books he had brought into my life by his Spirit working through others: Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can’t Stop Talking; and Captivating. He said reading these books would be to me like looking in two different mirrors. The former would show me my restrictions, or my nature. The latter would show me my possibilities, or my design.
He showed me a picture of a pot with a flower growing in it. Saying that I am presented to this world in a certain kind of container, but it is what the container holds, the flower, that he is cultivating. It is good to see both. They are connected and presented together. This scripture explains this to me:
2 Corinthians 4:7 But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. (NIV)
And so, I have hope again. God is not through with me, yet! And I am reminded that it is good to stop the inner dialogue and listen to my Creator, my Redeemer, and my Counselor – God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit. Bravo!