Tangled

In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. The earth was formless and empty, and darkness covered the deep waters. And the Spirit of God was hovering over the surface of the waters. Then God said, “Let there be light,” and there was light.

Genesis 1:1-3 (NLT)

Confession time. This morning I am feeling vulnerable and tangled. Over the past three days, we have had family and celebration for our new house and my husband’s birthday and retirement. Now it’s time to find our new normal, yet I still have unfinished projects and plans. Where do I start?

One of the most terrifying plans I have is to make new friends. Today, at 5:00, I will attend a craft day at a church that I hope to call my home church. I will be with women I don’t know and who don’t know me. (Freaking out a little here.) I will go there alone, (more freaking out,) but hope to leave with at least one person I can become friends with. Hopefully, someone will approach me and I won’t have to feel like an intruder.

My knee-jerk reaction is to find an excuse not to go, but then what? I’ll miss the opportunity to make new friends. Friends I need. Friends who need me. I would miss the opportunity of community and the sense of belonging. I would miss being blessed by what others can pour into my life and they would miss being blessed by what God will pour into their lives through me.

So why did I choose this scripture? My husband and I are at the place of new beginnings. Our life is formless and darkness covers the deep waters. But the Holy Spirit hovers over us, lovingly considering what he will create. Then God speaks and creation begins with light. With light comes revelation and understanding and more creation. The darkness is pealed back.

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”

Joshua 1:9 (ESV)

When we get tangled up in our fears, God reminds us to be strong and have courage. We can keep going, because he is with us. Even when our lives seem confusing or covered in mystery, he is with us, ready to speak light into our chaos.

Grace and Peace,

Sandy

Image by 愚木混株 Cdd20 from Pixabay

2 thoughts on “Tangled

  1. soniaaminrx

    Thank you for sharing your heart, Sandy. Can’t Wait to hear how Craft Day went. You’re right, He’s always with us.

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