I feel like there should be a warning at the beginning of this post, because I have so many threads running through my head—things God has been showing me—that I may come off a little scattered or disjointed.

I have made some big decisions recently which I thought would help my mental state. But instead of helping me feel good about checking them off my list of decisions-I-need-to-make-to-help-me-feel-less-overwhelmed, they just created new things for me to feel overwhelmed about. Can anyone relate?

So, what messages has God been sending me? I may go out of order.

The Lord God is my strength [my source of courage, my invincible army]; He has made my feet [steady and sure] like hinds’ feet And makes me walk [forward with spiritual confidence] on my high places [of challenge and responsibility].
‭‭Habakkuk‬ ‭3‬:‭19‬ ‭AMP‬‬

I love this Amplified version, because it helps me see how it applies to my life. God is my source of courage as I face my high places of challenge. He helps me walk steady and confident. Or He will, if I turn to Him and remember He is with me.

This was in the Bible plan I was reading and then my pastor quoted this verse:

I lift my eyes toward the mountains. Where will my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth.

He will not allow your foot to slip; your Protector will not slumber.
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭121‬:‭1‬-‭3‬ ‭CSB‬‬

Here I am again, high on the mountain worried that I might fall. Where will I find help? Who will keep me from falling? My Lord, Maker of heaven and earth. My God isn’t off somewhere snoozing. He is attentive—all the time.

I am in a book club discussing The Extraordinary Deaths of Mrs. Kip, by Sara Brunsvold. I found out she has a Bible plan based on her book that I started today. Clara Kip gives us a good example of making ourselves available to be used by God even when we are not feeling our best. She concluded today’s reading with this prayer:

Sovereign God, you weave every life together with immeasurable tenderness. You have put me in this time and place among these people for a reason. Help me to see the hours of my life as the blessing they are and these people around me as the gifts they are. Show me how I can serve you today among them. What little I have to give, I give with all that I am. Multiply these offerings. May they bring glory to your name and your name alone.

From Freedom in Surrender: Live God’s Great Purpose for You

This brings me to why I chose the title for this post. I signed up to attend the Realm Makers Conference and Expo. Between the cost of the conference, the hotel, and the airfare it is quite a pretty penny. I am an unpublished author. Convincing myself that this was a worthwhile investment was not a walk in the park. All my internal debate left me feeling battle weary. There was no way I felt worthy of the expense.

Yet, the message God has been whispering to me repeats the same thing using different words. My word for the year is More and I have been compiling a playlist every time a song feels like God is speaking to me. Here is one that came back to me today: Good Plans, Red Rock Worship. Can you guess what the song’s about?

So, between all these messages, the novel I’m writing came to mind and how it reflects my own life. In my home I live in a utopian world, but outside my door are people that I’m supposed to meet. People who will make a difference in my life and people who will be better because of me. And that is what got me over the hill of trying to justify the expense. God has plans for me and I’m excited to get out my front door and see what happens.

One more note about my book, and one more song the Lord brought me. My book was birthed from scriptures about bearing fruit and this song fits in more ways than one — The Gardener Sarah Kroger.

When God orders our steps, that is how we determine if our path is right. You are not nothing. God has plans for you. There are people that you need to play a part in their plan. Don’t let fear prevent you from stepping forward.

Grace & Peace,

Sandy

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