Just wanted to let you all know what’s happening with me. I will define what I am experiencing as a MID-life crisis. And I find it very eye opening. You see I’ve discovered the three major conditions that affect me. (Affect, right? Not effect?) M is for menopause, although if I were being technical it would be called perimenopause; I is for introversion, which I am now reading a book about; and last but not least, D is for depression, which as you know I have been blogging about for awhile. So there you have it – MID-life crisis. The newest addition to the equation, introversion, is really quite interesting. I am discovering things about myself that I have been struggling to change that for all intents and purposes I should be discovering just how much they make me the person I am. And I am better off embracing who I am and learning my strengths and how best to use them in light of this revelation. It would probably be easier to achieve some semblance of success if I didn’t have to deal with the other two parts of the equation but it is good to know that I’m not going to be stuck in this crisis forever.
One of my “life” verses is Ephesians 2:10 For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago. NLT I am uniquely me. God intended for me to be a certain kind of person for the plans he has for me. I guess it’s time to stop striving to be someone I’m not. But it’s also time to stop giving myself excuses for my lack of progression in the areas I feel called to.
Having that said, I covet your prayers. For even with this new found insight I am still at the mercy of a roller coaster of emotions. I have great days of enthusiasm and optimism, followed immediately by bouts of frustration and hopelessness. It does help to have some ability to look at myself objectively but knowing why I’m struggling does not erase my struggles and the avenues of help I am seeking are not an instant fix.
I will tell you I will be attending an Awaken conference next month and I have high hopes for the outcome of the time I spend there.
I look forward to sharing more about being an introvert and more about what I learn from the conference in the upcoming weeks.
Hope and Peace, Sandy