Do you ever feel stalled?

I guess that’s quite a ridiculous question in 2020. COVID has put a hold on so many of our normal activities. But what about this feeling seeping into activities that should still be happening or are still happening?

For me that’s writing.

Next week brings some major challenges for me. 1. We find out if we have a good appraisal for our property purchase and home building. 2. I find out the results of my MRI and whether I will need a fourth back surgery. 3. Thanksgiving without my kids and grandkids.

So many times we are told to live in the moment. Even the scriptures repeatedly tell us not to worry about tomorrow. But being in the waiting time, the not knowing time, especially as it gets closer, it’s a dark place.

What I previously felt as peace has morphed into a heavy blanket, weighing me down. Looking under the blanket, the peace is still there. I don’t have fear, but life feels tasteless. My writing feels like a chore. I felt no inspiration for this blog.

The only thing I could write about today, was exactly what I was feeling; stalled.

I wonder how many of you have been bombarded by so many issues and so many decisions that you feel like you are walking through quicksand? What has helped you cope with the problems that have come in 2020?

How many of you are holding on by a thread, hoping that in 2021 life will get back to normal?

The scripture that comes to mind is this:

No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us.

Philippians 3:13-14 (NLT)

Looking at my life right now, I tend to see only my challenges. In truth, I have many reasons to be thankful. In this month leading up to Thanksgiving, I have taken time each day to post something I am thankful for.

Here was my Facebook post from today:

I see now as I write this, I always have something to write about. It may not be awe-inspiring, but knowing that even in the dark places, I am not alone and neither are you. We will move on from here.

Grace & Peace

Sandy