Below the Surface

I have shared about my struggle with depression and anxiety. My journey has led me through various ways of coping; herbal supplements, prescription medications, healing prayer, and light therapy. I remember God hitting the reset button through one such healing prayer. It was awesome. Still, God spoke into my spirit, telling me this would be an issue I would continue to wrestle with.

I’ve recently quit my antidepressant. I was blasé. I was unmotivated and lacked energy. I have so much to do with preparing to move, I couldn’t afford to stay in that condition.

Now I am more motivated and have energy again, but just below the surface I can feel the anxiety. I haven’t gotten to the level of having a panic attack, but I am staying vigilant, knowing I may need to enlist the help of pharmaceuticals once more.

In the meantime, I listen to worship and read God’s Word. He brings me peace, hope, and strength. Here is my worship list and the scripture verses I’m listening to and meditating on. I pray they will bless you as much as they blessed me.

Rheva Henry – Here Again

So I speak over my heartbroken soul, “Take courage. Remember when you used to be right out front leading the procession of praise when the great crowd of worshipers gathered to go into the presence of the Lord? You shouted with joy as the sound of passionate celebration filled the air and the joyous multitude of lovers honored the feast of the Lord!”

So then, my soul, why would you be depressed? Why would you sink into despair? Just keep hoping and waiting on God, your Savior. For no matter what, I will still sing with praise, for you are my saving grace!

Psalm 42:4-5 (TPT)

When I said, “My foot is slipping!” Your unfailing love, O Eternal One, held me up.

When anxiety overtakes me and worries are many, Your comfort lightens my soul.

Psalm 94:18-19 (VOICE)

Red Rocks Worship – Living God

As the deer longs for streams of water, so I long for you, O God. I thirst for God, the living God. When can I go and stand before him?

I long, yes, I faint with longing to enter the courts of the Lord. With my whole being, body and soul, I will shout joyfully to the living God.

What joy for those who can live in your house, always singing your praises. Interlude

Psalm 42:1-2, & 84: 2,4 (NLT)

Cody Carnes – Run To The Father

Where could I go from your Spirit? Where could I run and hide from your face? If I go up to heaven, you’re there! If I go down to the realm of the dead, you’re there too!

Wherever I go, your hand will guide me; your strength will empower me.

Psalm 139:7-8,10 (TPT)

Grace & Peace,


Image by Vesa Minkkinen from Pixabay

4 thoughts on “Below the Surface

  1. Jackie Gardner

    Beautiful words, Sandy. You are blessed to be a blessing to others. It was wonderful meeting you today, and it is my hope that we can stay in touch and support each other in our writing journeys.

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