Do you remember this movement in the church? I do. I remember claiming things “in Jesus name” expecting the results for which I prayed. When I didn’t see my prayers answered, I was sure I wasn’t doing things right, or I didn’t have enough faith. This week has brought this conflict back into my consciousness.
My husband and I are trying to purchase a piece of land and have a home built. We have lived in a manufactured home for the past 28 years. That was all we could afford back then, when we had five growing children at home. But now we are ready for our dream home.
We found a beautiful property and have an offer in. I prayed. I asked for prayer. I wanted to “name it and claim it.” I listened for God to say yes. Did he? Not really. Did he say no? He didn’t say that either.
So? I am in the “wait on the Lord” phase. He is taking this opportunity to teach me a few things. I am reading through the Psalms on my own, and through John with my Life Group. Here are some of the verses I am meditating on and what I am learning.
I will proclaim the victory of the God of Jacob. Psalm 75:9a TPT
I asked myself if this means I should proclaim God’s victory over my situation, or I will proclaim his victory once this is over.
In John 3:34, I read what John the Baptist spoke of Jesus:
The One whom God has sent to represent him will speak the words of God, for God has poured out upon him the fullness of the Holy Spirit without limitation.
Jesus confirms this in John 12:49-50.
What I saw here, is that there are no barriers between God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit. Jesus knew what his Father was saying. Unlike God, I still have barriers.
There will be times on this earth when I will know beyond a shadow of a doubt what God’s will is, and there will be times when I have to trust without knowing. There are so many scriptures to gird my trust. Scriptures that tell me God is for me, that nothing can separate me from his love, and that he gives good and perfect gifts.
I really want that property. God knows my desire and I think he wants me to have it, but so far his answer to me is to wait.
If we don’t get it, will I be disappointed? Yes. Will it challenge my faith? No.
Let me share one more scripture from my reading this week.
Your favor will fall like rain upon our surrendered lives, like showers reviving the earth. Psalm 72:6 TPT
Sometimes the answer comes in surrendering that which we cling to so tightly. So I will surrender and I will wait.