Not So Contented

I am humbled and quieted in your presence. Like a contented child who rests on its mother’s lap, I’m your resting child and my soul is content in you. Psalm 131:2 TPT

If I’m being honest, I truly thought this time would bring me into a closer relationship with God. I had thought all this downtime to myself would be so full of insights and creativity that I wasn’t worried about declining into depression.

Unfortunately, that isn’t my experience today.

Mother’s Day approaches. I have five wonderful kids, I will be missing, plus my mom who lives with my brother’s family in California. Of course, we have ways of connecting that would have been considered miraculous in biblical times, but hugs and kisses are meant to be felt.

Social distancing brings social brokeness. God said it was not good for me to be alone. (Genesis 2:18) So how will I deal? I will…

    acknowledge, remember, and look to God before all else. (Psalm 3:5)
    consciously stop the negative talk in my head. (2 Cor. 10-5)
    reach out and call someone. (1 Thes. 5:11)
    accept love in all it’s forms. (1 John 4:19)

Spending time wishing things were different is like sitting in the bathtub when the plug is removed. It’s draining. I can’t sit there. It’s time to get dressed and face the day with a thankful heart for the many blessings I do have in my life.

For all you mothers out there, I wish you love — expressed, and felt. May this all resolve soon so we can be hugged and kissed as we should be!

2 thoughts on “Not So Contented

  1. Jill

    Love this message, Sandy! I can totally relate to finding downtime not so welcome or refreshing. I just feel better when I’m pouring myself out into others, and pandemic circumstances challenge that for all of us and especially moms. Happy Mother’s Day to you!

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