I picked this picture (above) and this scripture (below) to represent me in this moment. I don’t ever want to misrepresent myself or my struggles. I am a rollercoaster type. One minute full of excitement, enthusiasm, and inspiration, and the next minute full of doubt, despair, and depression. I absolutely love the top of the …
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I Love Feeling Loved
Yesterday was my birthday. I’m one of those people that unashamedly announce, “It’s my birthday today!” Then I soak up all the happy birthday wishes like a drug, craving the feeling that for one day a year, I am special. Then I wait for people to ask me how old I am, and if they …
I Have No Friends
Over the last week, I have been spiraling down. My thoughts, becoming more negative. I began to question why I am so open about my health and my struggles, posting my life on Facebook and this blog for everyone to see. The answer I gave myself was - I have no friends. Most people would …
Mysterious Ways
You've all heard the saying, ”God works in mysterious ways.” What does that mean, exactly? Does it mean he's unpredictable? Does it mean he is like a riddle? Merriam-Webster defines mysterious as: exciting wonder, curiosity, or surprise while baffling efforts to comprehend or identify. Whereas, Oxford Languages defines it this way: difficult or impossible to …
Out of Control
Out of control, that's how I'm feeling today. I'm sure I'm not the only one. I'm currently staying with my sister-in-law and brother-in-law, having evacuated due to wildfires. I'm pretty confident my house will not burn down but the air quality was beyond breathable. Even here it is heavy with smoke. My poor dog is …
Fire
On August 30th, sometime around 10 or 11 pm, my son and his two roommates’ mobile home burned to the ground. The fire destroyed four vehicles, plus an ATV, a motorcycle and a boat. And most heartbreakingly, took the life of my son’s dog, Jaxson. When you face stormy seas I will be there with …
Doubt
If God can clothe the fields and meadows with grass and flowers, can’t he clothe you as well, O struggling one with so many doubts?... So don’t ever be afraid, dearest friends! Your loving Father joyously gives you his kingdom realm with all its promises!Luke 12:28,32 (TPT) I have been living in a time of …
Not So Contented
I am humbled and quieted in your presence. Like a contented child who rests on its mother’s lap, I’m your resting child and my soul is content in you. Psalm 131:2 TPT If I'm being honest, I truly thought this time would bring me into a closer relationship with God. I had thought all this …
Looking into the Dark, Looking into the Light.
My journey this year has been life-giving. Each week I watch God bring new pieces of the puzzle for me to fit together. What at first seems random suddenly seems divinely intentional. I am in awe! The picture I posted for this was one I put together in 2018. I was learning a new perspective …
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Afraid of the Dark
I remember as a child my imagination going wild trying to determine what the different shapes were in my dark bedroom. I wouldn't allow my arm to drape over the edge of the bed because there might be something under there that would grab me. If I had forgotten to close my closet, the darkened …
The Far Reaches of Grace 