Hi there! This is a current picture of me, as of a few minutes ago. But before you read any further, let me give a disclaimer: This post will not teach you anything or provide any answers. Nevertheless, if you believe the old adage is true that misery loves company, then welcome.
Today I had my first experience with a Meet & Greet on Zoom. It was quite hysterical as apparently I wasn’t the only one new to this platform. Watching the wrangling of an overwhelming number of amazing women sharing their writing goals for the year with all the technical challenges added in should have been enough to hold my attention.
So why wasn’t I fully focused? It was the video link of me on the bottom of the screen sitting in my chair waiting to introduce myself. My iPad was resting in front of me at a frightening angle; the dreaded angle I try hard as I might to avoid when taking selfies. I couldn’t concentrate because I didn’t want anyone to see my double chin!
Of course it doesn’t stop there. My poor body image affects my confidence, my self esteem, and worst of all my joy. Poor body image sets the stage for negative self-talk, which is a bad thing to have if you are prone to depression and anxiety. It is self defeating and self sabotaging.
The sad thing is I will never be that skinny 18 year old girl again. Can I let go? A healthy body is important and worth my attention, but is it as important as mental health? Or even spiritual health? Besides, genetically I’m prone to a double chin. God tells me he loves me, so that should count, right?
I wish I wasn’t so human. That I was better at being better. I long for the day when my vision of myself aligns with God’s vision of me. That will be a great day indeed!